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OOh a computer! quick update EVERYTHING!!!

Published August 15, 2013 by ditsyhaze

So a long time ago my laptop broke…

Its been 3 months and it still isnt fixed 😦

That is why i have been MIA, Ive missed blogging but i just cant do it without a computer. sorry 😦

I have tried to keep up with you tube vlogs though,

I am at a friends house so I shall give you a quick link update!!

gastric bypass for kids!


do not press self destruct!


did I miss THE call?!


I have a date for my surgery!


day before my pre op appointment


My Zombie Weekend Update :)

Published March 4, 2013 by ditsyhaze

Hiya, happy monday!

I was a bit under the weather over the weekend- think pjs and zombie mode on the sofa!

so today, I made the effort to feel pretty and funky, even if it is just to fool myself into thinking I feel better!



Just an easy quick, everyday type look.




I kept myself busy with a few things ,apart from being a mum to two very excitable kids!

Firstly, my delivery arrived from ebay 🙂 LOVE  getting post!

I ordered some studs and bits and bobs to make hair accessories  So even though I felt poo, I customised my new plain hoody!  I’m pleased with how it turned out. Ill show you that soon :)…If ya want ;p

Also, Raven, My nearly 6yr old daughter has been loving drawing with my oil pastels, so last night it inspired me to have  a doodle with those.

I have to say, I enjoyed being creative after so long. There is alot of room for improvement, but it was good to get s tarted. I used to paint and draw all the time, but I never know what to draw and just get that blank paper-stare!

This is one of my doodles;


I cant wait to get started on the hair accessories 🙂

what do you do when you’re feeling creative?

Have a great day, Haziefantazie xxx



Fatshionfebruary the outfits I loved :)

Published March 1, 2013 by ditsyhaze

I have been feeling all bereft. its over 😦 sob…

So I decided to peruse all 200 -plus entries and share with you some of the outfits that I loved 🙂

First, Let me introduce you to the lovely – hellokatiexo   


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She says about herself;

~My name’s Katie, i’m 22, from New York and i’m happily taken. I like cupcakes, baking, thrifting, dresses, lipstick, cats, pugs, owls, Hello Kitty, Brand New, and Parks and Recreation. ♥~

I love the colours she puts together and the Kitschy-ness of her look and her home! I have a soft spot for owls 🙂 …but back to the clothes! I just love her bold style, bettie bangs and her attention to detail 🙂

Next I chose to show you – http://thecuteinexecute.tumblr.com/

Her style is edgy and fun and fearless;


~29. Finnish. Fat and nerdy.

Things you’ll see here: Stuff that has to do with fatshion, body politics, identity politics and fat activism. My face and outfits. Things I find funny. Cute animals. 90s nostalgia. Occasional fandom/geek/gamer stuff.~

I am yet to add a leather (or pleather more like!) jacket to my wardrobe, but it is something I really really want! so This chromatic ensemble speaks volumes to me.




~Hi! I’m Laura, a fatshionista currently living in Boston. I started this blog both because I believe in the radical power of fat visibility, and because I love shiny objects.~

That tutu, boots and hairband…awesome! serious wardrobe envy from these ladies!

And lastly, and who I believe is a strong contender;


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~I’m a queer poly fattie from NYC who enjoys unicorns and other cute things. I’m still figuring myself out.~

I love the whole, fun, bold, Bright and confident collection. I love stripey legwear, Shiny Doc’s and that cloud patterned dress! wow 😛

This is just a few of the entries this year, I encourage you to go have a look, check out their Tumblrs, and be inspired to wear what ever the hell you feel like!

Have fun, If I can do it, so can you 🙂

Haziefantazie xxx

Finishing fatshionfeb in my Arse Kicking Boots :D

Published February 28, 2013 by ditsyhaze

Its the last day of Fatshion february! 😦

I wish I had discovered it sooner, I’ve really enjoyed the whole process and it has helped so much with self confidence.

I have also challenged and won the battle against taking silly joke photos as a safety measure. Huzzah!!

so, last day… I felt like revealing the real, true, everyday me 🙂

dum dum duuuuum!




This is how you would find me on an average, popping to the shops, doing the school run kind-of day.

The hoody, I made a year or so ago. It is a plain cheap h&m hoodie that I customised with sfety pins and an old Opeth t-shirt. I loved the artwork on the shirt, but it just never fit me well, so i chopped it up!

The bottle green vest is from new look, Its a bubble hem vest and i love the style, so i have it in black, blue and green as they are cheap!

My leggings as always are from sainsbury’s. they do a two for £10 pack and they are good quality, so I have found them to be the best value.

Skirt was an ebay find, Its actually a petticoat that comes with a corset, but meh! I wear it out n about 😛

and my big ass kicking boots are Osago. They are super comfy and keep my feet warm. and I can walk through good squishy mud puddles!

so that’s me 🙂

I hope you have enjoyed the february journey, let me know what kind of things you would like me to blog about now that fatshionfeb is over 🙂

Lots of love, Haziefantazie xxx

Fatshion Feb 26th – sugar skull earings, Yeah!

Published February 26, 2013 by ditsyhaze

feb26 OOTD


Must not be mean about old lady neck…must not be mean….must not!!!! eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

and breathe!!

ok so!,  today’s outfit!

Earrings- Love Dixie on ebay

Leggings and vest- Sainsbury’s

purple shirt- New look


Pink Bow (for hair)- Miss FooFooVon Ladygarden 🙂

The stripy legs are tights that were ‘one size’ Yeah right! so I chopped them into knee high socks and safety pinned them to my short leggings 🙂

I think I may miss Fatshion feb, Its helping my confidence seeing all the gorgeous ladies doing thier thing 🙂

maybe tho I will be in the habit of  finding nice outfits instead of the fail safe comfy hoody .

We shall see!

FaTshion February sunday 24th :)

Published February 24, 2013 by ditsyhaze

I’m quite proud of myself today 🙂

I figured out how to use the auto-timer on the camera! 😛 ( I’m not a tech kinda gal, I’m much more a glitter and glue lady!)

Then, I also found a free and rather groovy site called Picisto.com where I was able to make my picture collage, well done me!

so, day 3 of entering the FaTshion feb blog. I feelt a bit of a tit yesterday after I uploaded the photo with the sunglasses on. But then it was there and I just had to deal with it. Like I said in a previous post, Its hard to unlearn old behaviours, and I started to pick at myself with negative thoughts and feeling embarrassed.

So, today I decided not to back down and hide, but to face the insecurities full-on and go for it!

I did my makeup all pretty, and put on my favourite dress from Jordash, and went out to play!


I’m pleased with the outcome and proud of myself for carrying on.

You can see all the entries here-   http://fatshionfebruary.tumblr.com

I hope you are all well and having a happy sunday 🙂

Feb 23rd FaTshion feb entry, Fluffy slippers ahoy!

Published February 23, 2013 by ditsyhaze


Today is a rest day, but I figured, I could still enter!

Yes, the sunglasses are because it is a no makeup day, and because I love them 😛

Have a great day, whatever you are up to 🙂


errmaageerrd! what’s with your face?!

Published February 22, 2013 by ditsyhaze

I don’t like being in photos…

When I pose for a piccy, I have visions in my mind of rockabilly starlets with cherry bitten lips, sun on their skin and wind in their hair..


yeah, that doesn’t happen ……


Not so much glamorous pin-up, more constipated -caught stealing a bike!

I’m sure the trolls have developed new ways of snarkling and tampering with digital technology. turning the (obviously) gorgeous creature captured, into a crayola painted extra from Fantasia’s hippo ballet!

Ah dag-namn it, who am I kidding!

I seem to have developed a cunning escape plan from disappointing photos of myself;

just be a complete TIT in all of the photos of me, then at least I’m supposed to look stupid!

let me show you-


Photo’s being taken, Quick!….adopt a silly pose!


too much tongue!! sorry 😛

and lastly-


Good old fish face!

Now, I do enjoy a good humorous photo, Its awesome to have a giggle. But the truth is, I do it ( the silly faces etc) because its safer to be the one who takes the piss out of myself first. In all honesty, I just wanted a nice photo of myself on a family day out in a beautiful place, But, I project forward to seeing the picture, and then being dissapointed, embarrassed, shamed… so, cue the’ fish lips’!!

Its as if I see myself and think, Shit! is this what I look like to others, how the hell do dare go out in public?!? So to protect myself, I do silly pics.

This, Miss Haze, needs to stop!


stop being afraid of your own physicality. Embrace yourself as others do.


I am loved  and told I am beautiful by my husband, My daughter believes I am pretty like a princess, I like my own quirky style, I enjoy makeup and painting my nails, My friends accept me for me. I have awesome tattoos by talented artists and I genuinely get complements daily for my bright purply-pink hair.

So if the people I care about have no problem with me, and I like who I am, then I really should embrace it and stop sabotaging myself.

I came across an awesome blog today;


It caught my eye because the prize for their competition is gift cards for one of my favourite- and completely out of my budget plus size fashion sites, Domino Dollhouse.

http://www.dominodollhouse.com/   This is my dream outfit, I love it ❤


Its called Fatshion February, The Idea being that throughout the month ( I’m catching this soooo late!) that people take photos of their Outfits each day and submit them to the Fatshion February blog. They encourage plus size, They encourage being bold and quirky, and confident!

I looked through the submissions and found myself getting really enthusiastic 🙂 I felt like I had found a group of like minded people, but people who had taken that extra step, found that extra bit of strength and embraced themselves!

There are no candid ‘Get me I’m such a goof!’ shots. They are photos of gorgeous individuals being themselves and not afraid to stand tall in the face of judgement, and show that they have style and beauty of their own. They are fantastic 🙂

I don’t like being in pictures, But that comes from a place of doubt and unworthiness. I have shed most of that ‘old’ thinking, and I want to shed this leftover relic of a belief /behaviour that doesn’t serve me any-more.


I am excited to put together some outfits for the rest of Feb and submit them to the Fatshion February Blog. I’m excited to be a part of it 🙂

It will take time to un-programme myself from being a harsh critic and seeing the worst, and there will be terrible double chins and constipated faces! but it is me, and I’m ok.

Also, I might give this a go-


Let me know if you do, and how you found it?

Lots of Love

Haziefantazie xxxx


*upward spiral*

Published December 12, 2012 by ditsyhaze

A while back I posted a Facebook status;

“Little by little, I’m doing it. each moment and each choice matters :)”

And you know what, Its true!

All those moments, all those individual decisions and choices, they all add up, and when I see them coming together to form something tangible and real, Its so exciting ! 🙂


I’m so grateful that all my choices are taking me in the direction I want and need. That my intuition is helping me to make the choices that are right for me. I’m really proud of myself 😛

What you think is powerful, You have the power to be your worst enemy or your biggest supporter. For a long time I was bad for ‘me’.

My thoughts were destructive, my self belief  and confidence in tatters, It has taken an age, a whole chunk of my life, but  have built myself back up, I have allowed others to help support and love me, so that I can reach a point of knowing my own self-worth.


But now, I am my own biggest supporter. It feels nice, to be nice to me 🙂

It is a much happier place in my head, and I am going to keep it that way.


Trust your intuition, Allow others to love you, Love yourself.

Its so very hard to start, but once you make a change, make a choice, you can move from spiralling downward, into the Upward spiral. Its awesome, come join me!


You can do it, make a choice, do it for you, Everything will fall into place



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