I don’t like being in photos…
When I pose for a piccy, I have visions in my mind of rockabilly starlets with cherry bitten lips, sun on their skin and wind in their hair..
yeah, that doesn’t happen ……
Not so much glamorous pin-up, more constipated -caught stealing a bike!
I’m sure the trolls have developed new ways of snarkling and tampering with digital technology. turning the (obviously) gorgeous creature captured, into a crayola painted extra from Fantasia’s hippo ballet!
Ah dag-namn it, who am I kidding!
I seem to have developed a cunning escape plan from disappointing photos of myself;
just be a complete TIT in all of the photos of me, then at least I’m supposed to look stupid!
let me show you-
Photo’s being taken, Quick!….adopt a silly pose!
too much tongue!! sorry 😛
and lastly-
Good old fish face!
Now, I do enjoy a good humorous photo, Its awesome to have a giggle. But the truth is, I do it ( the silly faces etc) because its safer to be the one who takes the piss out of myself first. In all honesty, I just wanted a nice photo of myself on a family day out in a beautiful place, But, I project forward to seeing the picture, and then being dissapointed, embarrassed, shamed… so, cue the’ fish lips’!!
Its as if I see myself and think, Shit! is this what I look like to others, how the hell do dare go out in public?!? So to protect myself, I do silly pics.
This, Miss Haze, needs to stop!
stop being afraid of your own physicality. Embrace yourself as others do.
I am loved and told I am beautiful by my husband, My daughter believes I am pretty like a princess, I like my own quirky style, I enjoy makeup and painting my nails, My friends accept me for me. I have awesome tattoos by talented artists and I genuinely get complements daily for my bright purply-pink hair.
So if the people I care about have no problem with me, and I like who I am, then I really should embrace it and stop sabotaging myself.
I came across an awesome blog today;
It caught my eye because the prize for their competition is gift cards for one of my favourite- and completely out of my budget plus size fashion sites, Domino Dollhouse.
http://www.dominodollhouse.com/ This is my dream outfit, I love it ❤
Its called Fatshion February, The Idea being that throughout the month ( I’m catching this soooo late!) that people take photos of their Outfits each day and submit them to the Fatshion February blog. They encourage plus size, They encourage being bold and quirky, and confident!
I looked through the submissions and found myself getting really enthusiastic 🙂 I felt like I had found a group of like minded people, but people who had taken that extra step, found that extra bit of strength and embraced themselves!
There are no candid ‘Get me I’m such a goof!’ shots. They are photos of gorgeous individuals being themselves and not afraid to stand tall in the face of judgement, and show that they have style and beauty of their own. They are fantastic 🙂
I don’t like being in pictures, But that comes from a place of doubt and unworthiness. I have shed most of that ‘old’ thinking, and I want to shed this leftover relic of a belief /behaviour that doesn’t serve me any-more.
I am excited to put together some outfits for the rest of Feb and submit them to the Fatshion February Blog. I’m excited to be a part of it 🙂
It will take time to un-programme myself from being a harsh critic and seeing the worst, and there will be terrible double chins and constipated faces! but it is me, and I’m ok.
Also, I might give this a go-
Let me know if you do, and how you found it?
Lots of Love
Haziefantazie xxxx
*Haziefantazie and the Spooky-mog* 